By knowing you better I learn so well
To know what’s inside me.
Your eyes, my hair,
Your laughter, my tears.
Your teasing, my fears.
When I get serious I see how much you upset me
You play me like a violin
I dance to your tune.
Looking back, I see
I’ve been going out with guys
Who all remind me of you.
Now that I know this I have to change it.
I don’t want to repeat the same mistake.
I love and hate you.
I can’t let you rule my life anymore.
When I look at you I see myself.
I don’t hug easily or cry a lot
I don’t like sharing nor caring what anyone else thinks.
But then I see where I’m different.
I love flowers and animals
I love colors and music.
I see I'm too much like you.
If you saw yourself the way I see you –
Would you want to change?
So maybe if I try to focus on what I really want
in the man I plan to spend the rest of my life with
I can think of what I like or hate in you
And use that to measure other guys to see how they stack up.
Does he show affection?
Does he laugh easily?
Walks and movies, music and food
The so-called “wise ones” narrow it down to sex and money
In my few years of knowing this, I know…
We look for our parents when we look for our mates
The cycle continues we pass it on.
Maybe I’m looking for someone else to take your place
To show me the love you show in the only way I know
Cold and uncaring
Your laughter, my tears
No touch, no hugs
Just teasing and frowns
I plan to break the cycle this time.
I want to be smarter, stronger, wiser, and luckier.I want to be loved.